This is our much-awaited miracle, Kyliava Mikayla. We tried to have her for nineteen months, even went through two months of fertility treatment that failed. Casting Crowns has a song, “I Will Praise You In This Storm” that really spoke to my heart, it would make tears come to my eyes when I heard it, because even though I felt this trial was a horrible storm, I was continuing to praise God and trust him in this, hard as it was.
Finally, in January 2007, after nineteen long months of praying for a baby, I fell on my knees and told God that I was tired of praying for a baby, and that if He wanted me to get pregnant, then I‘d get pregnant. I didn’t pray for a baby any more. I was beginning to feel that we would never have a baby, even though I felt an earnest yearning in my heart for another. It constantly broke my heart to see what seemed like everyone around us either pregnant or with a new baby. I couldn’t help but continually ask God why He would do this to me.
In February, I took a pregnancy test, as I had many times before. As usual, it was negative. Crying, I fell to my knees and begged God to make it be wrong. Two days later, a month since I had told God that I wasn’t asking him for a baby any longer, I took another test and got the positive that we had waited so long to see. On September 26, 2007, Kyliava was born, a perfect seven-and-a-half pounds, absolutely beautiful, with a head full of gorgeous black hair. She is now a year old… and I am still in awe over her. I still can’t believe we have her. I look at her, and I truly can feel my heart smile, it‘s a feeling that I can‘t describe. An answered prayer, a dream come true.
I thank God every day for my three wonderful Blessings!
